Double Face
I had been thinking.
Who taught me to hide my own weakness.
When I wanna cry, i would force my smile out, so that my eyes will meek and my tears will be held back
When i wanna turn angry, i would smile, so that my mouth won't be able to voice out my words.

Hais. Always on this topic ... Sian right. My whole head is of Literature ;o
When will i find back my own self? Or rather is this my own self? I duno. But i prefer to adopt this way of thinking.

Meh talked to me about things which i preferred not to care about. But whatever
The bbq. Im sorry for turning down the request. Its just that. i can't go. my family is screwing me.my heart betrays my actions. my heart follows the decision of not going.

for those jokers who always love to say. "I go if shawn go." I would like to throw some words into your face. "you are a fucker"
Why? you are just plain selfish. I am just being direct. If i dun go, i have my own reasons. But if u are gonna not go just cause im not going. I have no idea what the fuck you are thinking. go screw yourself.

And to meh. "Dun cancel the bbq thinge. Its for the enjoyment of the rest. The outing does not only cater to only a handful of us. Since u've invited the people, it will be a misdeed if u cancel it due to reasons which are considered to be trees among the forests"

Regarding np today. I sorta liked it. The way things are going. My Aim is to polish the sec2s into people who are good in drills, campcraft and those who wun lose their passion. Hope i succeed.

The efficiency of the sec2 ncos are also being forced to improve. And i like it =D
i personally think sec2 squad rocks my world. Because. u can see the passion burning within them, and u can see that they feel very happy during np. They dun give u a dark dulan face. Hope that face will last.

Im gonna mug. thats the only resolution i have for the rest of the year. buahahha
Other aims: Read more TIMES, and other english magazines. rawr~